So busy writing that I didn’t have time to watch DVDs yet, and the weekend is busy with the last travels of the season. Sigh. I’m also busy musing and pondering because I feel the need to change – with my body aging not so gracefully – and find something else to do for the coming years (if my eyes and right hand don’t give up on me, that is!).
No, I’m not divorcing Mr. Writing, but lately I’m unhappy with everything I write, probably from the lack of response (the usual suspect needs not commenting on this, my #1 fan will always be in my heart and read my books even if I stop publishing them).
I started writing 40+ years ago because I was a lonely introvert uprooted at the wrong time. I kept writing the stories I wanted to read and couldn’t find in the legacy publishing. Granted, those stories don’t stand the test of time, but I kept my imagination active! 😉
Then comes the new millennium, and indie publishing, and switching language to a wider readership. Happy dance, gonna find my readers now!
Not. I didn’t find them when I was a pioneer, I will definitely not find them now that everybody jumped on the bandwagon and spends money on ads. So, tending and pruning the garden should give me a break, and the time to come up with reader magnets, newsletter, Patreon or whatnot.
Thing is, before I make writing a business, I need to change other things. I’m sick of Day Job and want to find an alternative, but I’m not sure where to look. I’m sick of Italy and want to move elsewhere, but I’m not sure where. I’d love to take a sabbatical, but I’m not sure how to spend it. I’m considering temporary alternatives to all this, but haven’t talked to the interested parties yet.
picture by NASA
The premise of the following is that if one wishes for something it gets in the cosmic memory and one gets it when it’s the right time – if one really needs it. We might wish for something we don’t actually need, therefore it doesn’t happen.
So, is it better to wait for things to happen and then act accordingly, or to try and make things happen? What if they don’t happen because it’s not the right time, and it leaves you frustrated and/or depressed?
This is where I’m at today. Either I’m burned out or I have a big mid-life crysis. Some big decisions in the months to come, but can’t make them while I’m tired, so for now I’ll just wait for the weather to cool down and allow me to think. Have a wonderful weekend! 🙂